September 19, 2010

a new normal

10 days on my "mood med"
I have not felt like this in over 11 yrs
and tired but that is the price I pay
to feel NORMAL

haven't yelled at my family
no crying all day anymore
the overwhelmed  feeling is slowly fading

also not cleaning or doing much
unless I push myself
and then I do get things done...
just in small batches
really just enjoying being so RELAXED

 I am still able to be "happy" or "sad"
not feeling just "medicated and uncaring" or an "observer" of my life
like when I had panic attacks after the birth of my 2nd daughter and took Paxil

I see the doctor in 4 weeks
not sure what to expect then
stay on the med?
wean off?
up the dose?
decrease it?
Not sure I want off the med yet
I know at this point I can't miss my dose by even a bit 
because the tears came yesterday 
when I was an hour plus late

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