Not sure anyone but me cares anymore but this is the 2 year anniversary of finding out we were expecting our reversal baby. We had 2 weeks of enjoying that baby before we found out the baby was in my left tube and it was rupturing requiring surgery in Feb. My heart hurts still. I look around and think about the little 15 month old that should be toddling around my house getting into trouble with the other kids. I've been crying a bunch this week. No one really understans why I still mourn especially for such an early loss. I've watched my reversal sisters that shared my EDD go on to have their precious bundles and a few have another on the way. And I still have empty arms.
The younger kids still pray at times for another baby during bedtime prayers. My oldest doesn't think prayer works anymore. She has prayed for the 3 yrs since my reversal for a baby and since I haven't managed to get pregnant or keep a pregnancy she thinks God doesn't care or hear her. Her faith is shaking. THAT breaks my heart. We have talked to her that God DOES hear but His plans might not include a new baby here on earth. She quotes scriptures to us about "ask and it will be given" and "babies are a blessing" so she feels we are not blessed or in His will. God that hurts to hear her say that! I don't know what to say.
I'm crying again. I've cried so much today I have a massive headache.
If anyone hears and cares I would love you to lift us up in prayers. Lord knows I need them.
