The Lord works in mysterious ways

I was going to wait to post this, but man oh man I am too excited!
Since I was last on here I can say we as a family hit rock bottom. Hubby and I were at it like cats and dogs. The kiddos were running the house and it was CHAOS! We got to the point of considering a divorce. That is HUGE for us as we don't believe in doing that just on a whim.
So let me set the scene a bit cause this is something most people just don't get IRL unless they too have had Jesus come and do a mighty work in their lives.
For most of the year I wasn't here things were so bad I really couldn't bring myself to get back on here. I mean who wants to hear how bad my life was!? Fights were daily. Hubby hated coming home dreading the arguments. Sometimes he just had to zone out and go to a movie without telling me which of course led to a huge fight when he got home because I assumed (and we all know what that means ;) ) he was having an affair or something just as horrible. Our kiddos were going nuts. Our oldest was failing school subjects she loved just 'cause'. Her attitude was heading her for a boot camp style private school cause we couldn't handle it anymore. Our middle daughter was in tears over doing any school because she would never measure up to her big sis. Our toddler was a terror. He was the poster child for bad behaviour. Thanks to his antics my girls looked like they fought in street fights with scratches and bite marks all over them. He was even sneaking into their room at night to get them.
Needless to say it wasn't pretty.
One night about 3 months ago things came to a head.
Hubby and I had had it. We were done. He was walking. I was getting a job and the kiddos were heading to school. We fought so hard that night that I sat bawling in the bedroom as he stormed out. It was then I cried out to our Lord. I cried 'WHY!? In all my life I knew You were there! I could always look back and say "there was my GOD and see how He carried me!" but Lord now I look and you are not there. I can not see You in my life for the last year! I am without hope!!"
It was then I heard satan whispering that hubby had meds in the kitchen and if I took them I could sleep and it would all be over. So soft. So seductive. So scary beyond belief! I fled to my SUV and called my mom. She talked to me 4 hrs while I sat in the summer heat and poured out my heart. I returned to the house and told dh about the meds. He immediately took them and tossed them out. He said we needed help.
Monday came and I called every Christian marriage counselor I could. Only one called me back. He had an opening that night at the same time my kids would be in VBS. PRAISE GOD!
We went. I was thinking well this is it. Hubby will tell me it is truly over in front of this guy so I won't make a big deal and he can feel good that I had someone on my side. It turned out hubby opened up and really talked! We spent 2 hrs in there talking. Turns out he just didn't hear me and I didn't hear him. We were jaded and hurt and lashing out instead of hearing the other in love.
That week we kept going to Cleburne Bible Church for VBS and people were so warm and friendly. They invited us to church on Sunday. We went and loved it. A GRACE BASED church that truly was all about Grace. Hubby loved it and he was not a firm believer in Christ. I went to small group that night while hubby worked on some blue prints. I confessed our troubles and they prayed for me. I felt like I had found family.
We started attending every Sunday and every small group on Sunday night. 3 weeks later hubby decided to join the church. We went to the Discovery class (how you join the church) and took the Spiritual Gifts Assessment. Hubby and I are more alike than we knew! He saw he really does have gifts given by God for him to use. During the class he realized he wasn't 100% given to God and he made the choice to give his life and heart over.
BAM! it was a 180 degree turn around!! This is not the man I married 11 yrs ago. PRASIE GOD! My prayers were answered! I now have a believing Christ centered hubby who wants to lead his family!
We are still going to counselling. After 3 months of weekly meetings we are going 2 times a month. We have had 2 fights in 4 mo and we chalk those up to hormones and sleep deprived snapping. We have a family in our church that is better than a biological family. They don't care what we did before Jesus and what we did/do after Jesus they try to help us find the right way. There is no condemnation. Only love and growth in Christ.
This fall if all goes well I am having my tubal ligation reversed! We are restoring my body and my health.
And if God chooses to bless us again we are welcoming it with opens arms and hearts.
Praise God for restoring my marriage and healing past wounds!