40 weeks ago my heart sang as two lines appeared on home pregnancy test
and I said "hello" to a new life
1 week of pregnant bliss followed by
1 week of a tugging "catch" in my hip that turned into a
few days of horrid pain and trips to the ER
and finally the OR
where I said "goodbye" to a life cut short
34 weeks later I sit here with heavy heart
I should be saying "hello" to my new baby
I have been up since 4am crying and feeling sick
a labor or the heart of sorts
coming full term with my loss
letting go
beginning to move on
from a due date that wasn't
